Stole from razorfoot because this seemed interesting.

1. You can ONLY answer 'Yes' or 'No'.

2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks --- the temptation may be hard to resist but these are the rules :p


Kissed any one of your LiveJournal friends? — Yes
Been arrested? — Yes
Kissed someone you didn't like? — Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — Yes
Ran a red light? — Yes
Been suspended from school? — No
Experienced love at first sight? — No
Totaled your car in an accident? — Yes
Been fired from a job? — No
Fired somebody? — Yes
Sung karaoke? — Yes
Pointed a gun at someone? — Yes
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — No (want to though >v>)
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — Yes
Saw someone die? — Yes
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — No
Smoked a cigar? — Yes
Sat on a rooftop? — Yes
Smuggled something into another country? — Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — Yes
Broken a bone? — No
Skipped school? — Yes
Eaten a bug? — Yes
Sleepwalked? - Yes
Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yes
Ridden a motorcycle? — No
Dumped someone? — Yes
Forgotten your anniversary? — No
Lied to avoid a ticket? — Yes
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — Yes
Blacked out from drinking? — Yes
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — No
Felt like killing someone? — Yes
Cross-dressed? — Yes
Been falling-down drunk? — Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Yes
Eaten snake? — No
Marched/Protested? — Yes
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — No
Knitted? — No
Been on TV? — Yes
Shot a gun? — Yes
Skinny-dipped? — No
Given someone stitches? — Yes
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — No
Ridden a surfboard? — No
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Yes
Had surgery? — Yes
Streaked? — No
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — No
Tripped on mushrooms? — No
Passed out when NOT drinking? — Yes
Peed on a bush? — Yes
Donated Blood? — Yes
Grabbed electric fence? — No
Eaten alligator meat? - No
Eaten cheesecake? — Yes
Killed an animal when not hunting? — Yes
Peed your pants in public? — No
Snuck into a movie without paying? - Yes
Written graffiti? — Yes
Still love someone you shouldn't? — No
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — Yes
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — Yes

Most people who know me know I'm a hardcore audiophile. I love music. I do lean a bit, mostly to rock. Now and then, I come across a song that shakes me, or I just feel so deeply. So today, I found out that one of my favorite bands put out a new album. Of course I got it. I listened to a few songs, and love the album so far, but one song stood out for me. Ironically, it's the first single off the track.

I'll be honest... today started horribly for me. I was kinda ready to give up on most things. Everything felt like a pipe dream, leading endlessly with the goal never in sight. The reason this stuck out is because it means the opposite of everything I felt. It actually helped me get back my resolve.



Fall!

Now The dark begins to rise
Save your breath it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Nows your chance to run for cover
I don't want to change the world
I just want to leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I Will Not Bow, I Will Not Break
I Will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall!

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to heaven
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

You're right!

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

Fall!

These days, I find myself thinking a lot about strength, though, it probly isn't what most would expect at first glance. In my mind, I just want to know, what does it mean to truly be strong?

A lot of people seem to think that to me, being strong has to do with having big muscles, or bring able to pick up things, and other bs like that. But no... that's not what being strong is to me. I really don't have a clear cut definition to be honest. It's always been something that's very gray to me, never black and white.

So, what does it mean to be strong? Is it having the muscles and power, or is it more than that? Is it being compassionate? Does it mean being able to persevere though things that pain you? Is it, no matter what life throws in your path, being able to continue being you? Is it to continue walking down the path you think is right? Is it making your own path, despite what you hear?

Is it being able to forgive? Is it the capability to know that someone has greatly wronged you in the past, yet in spite of that transgression, being able to go on and have forgiveness in your heart for them? Is it to be caring, about those you hold dear? Is it about being there for other people when they need you? Is it having the knowlege to know when you're wrong, and admit it, and to be humble from that? I don't know myself...

Some of these things... I always try to be. Over the years, I noticed that I closed myself up slowly, but in spite of that, I've always tried to do these things. I've always wanted to be strong. For the love of my life who has stood by me since I've met him, to my friends who I can count on through my darkest times, for myself.

I don't know if I'm strong or not.... I'll never know I suppose. It doesn't stop the wanting of it. One of these days... maybe I will know. Until then, I'll continue to search for my own meaning of it. For my man, who I feel has always been strong for me when I felt weak. For my friends when they need someone to hold them up when the weight of the world seems too much to bare. Most of all, for myself, so that I don't have to tire when I people who count on me, and need me to be strong for them, so they don't have to be all the time.

It's about 5am right now. My insomnia killed in hardcore tonight, so yea. I spent a lot of the time thinking, doing some naughty things, and a bit of writing. My mind always trails back to my boy, the only one who I ever felt really got me. Not the me that I let everyone see, not the dick I let most people think I am, not even the caring person that I let the select few see. The me I hide away from everyone.

I worry about him, and get angry at some of the things he does, but at the end of the day, all I want is to see him happy, to see him grow, to see him continue to be the wonderful man that I fell in love with.

So, back from FurFright. Even though I was only there for 2 days, I had an amazing time. Went in with a bunch of low expectations because of what I'm doing the following weekend and the length of time I'd be there, and I left with some new friends, and some fantastic memories.

Roommates were zero_whitefang williebear nocturne1800 and our last minute add on odendo

Gotta say, some of the best set of roommates I had for a con. Though... I feel bad for the 36-pack of Mountain Dew... didn't stand a chance for those two days.... -Moment of silence-

I drove Foxwell up from our town on the Friday night. Got in very last, to the point where I said fuck Friday, I'll start con mode Sat. lol. And, oh God did I. Started filling up my new sketchbook, looked at some great pieces, and just had a blast.

Got to see so many old friends that I missed a lot. It was so good to see everyone again. I also got to meet a bunch of new furs that were an absolute pleasure to just be around in general. I really wish I could mention them all, but I might break FA xvx

Do have some special shouts though. Much thanks to spunky for drawing in my book. Cutest thing there now :3. Was great seeing and talking to dragoneer again too, even though the ant assaulted him D:. Much love to jdpuppy and jimwolf24 too. These guys are always a blast to talk to and be around, not to mention I got to see JD give a dance lesson :3. And a big thanks to the Big Coon tonyringtail . You put my magic talons to the test this weekend lol.

I'm so sorry to anyone that I didn't get to talk to or meet. There was a lot going on and I was running everywhere at some point or another. FurFright is, and will always be, one of my favorite cons to go to.

Now that FurFright is done, the only thing on my mind is my trip to see my wonderful gryphon this coming weekend. I can't wait for hold my boy again.

That pretty much covers it all I guess. Till the next con :3

SQUEEEEEEE!!!!

lol, well, been waiting a year for this con, and it's only a few days away now.

I'll be rooming with zero_whitefang this year in the Mariott, so I'll be shuffling back and forth between the room and the con. Also, I won't be there the entire con. I'll be driving up on Friday night, and leaving Mid-Sunday. I still have work and school to worry about hehe.

So rememebr to come say hi and hangout. I'll probly be in the zoo a lot. See you all there!!!

Well... Not so bad this time around, for once.

The basics of my week are simple this semester:

Mon & Wed: Class all day
Tues, Thurs, Fri: Work all day
2nd or 3rd Sat of Every Month: Work all day

And for those that need a visual example:



Hehe. so yea, working 9-5 normally. Class-wise, this is what I'm taking:

Managerial Account
Human Sexuality
Business Law
Spanish

Not a hard year for me, but I'm gonna be buckling down and barecading myself in the school library most of the week for a while. Still gonna have time for friends and such, still gonna be the safe goofball, and still gonna do my little trips to visit peoples, but during the week, unless otherwise noted, I'm locked x.x

Not to say this is bad for me. I like this schedule, and I can make it work this time around. One more year, and I'm done with school. YAY!

Now, for something silly and rediculous to leave you all with :3

Saw this around the net, thought it would be fun lol

Directions:
-Provide answers
-Questions are one word, so interpret as you think right.
-Tag 5 people

1. Gender?
Well... I'm bi... but I do lean towards guys a lot

2. Hair?
I like dark hair,. I don't know, I just prefer it lol. And it has to be enough for me to run my hands though :3

3. Eyes?
-Chuckles- I have a BIG weakness for blue-ish eyes. I think they're hot lol. Besides that, I like a guy with nice eyes. Someone's eyes tell a lot about them. I like a guy who has deep eyes. Ones that show he's seen life, but still has the strength to move forward.

4. Body?
Can't lie here at all. I love a big, bulky guy lol. Nothing obscene, but a hefty build on a nice, wide frame. Around 250 pounds on a little less than 6 foot. Give me something to hold onto and cuddle up with lol.

5. Personality?
Hehe, I actually like a guy like myself in this aspect. Someone who is a bit carefree at times. Isn't afraid to be a complete goofball. Someone who likes to crack stupid jokes, not really caring too much, so long as he get a laugh from someone. Though, again like me, they have to know when its time to be serious, and when to joke.

6. Affection?
Again, can't lie. I like a guy who isn't afraid to be affectionate with me. I'm a pretty cuddly Teddy Hawk, and I do love to snug up. I like a guy who isn't afraid to show me that he cares that way, or afraid to give my belly a nice rubdown lol. Someone who isn't afraid to kiss me, or tell me that they love me in a way that I know that they mean it.

7. Attitude?
Oh God... well... I like someone who has a bit of an attitude lol. Someone who can stand their ground on what they think. Can be afraid to back-talk me a bit, even if they're wrong lol.

8. Sex?
Hahaha, well... I'm a dom... so I would love someone who likes to sub. Not to say pushover though. I love a good fight. Makes it more fulfilling to claim my prize >:3

9. Tag: I TAG WHOEVER WANT TO DO THIS! :3

Shit.... my AIM buddy list went to shit... FUCK YOU THE LAST GOOD THING FROM AOLTIMEWARNER!

People who want back on it, comment, or message me you SN please. I had too many, so I can't remember them all. ;v;

So, I got bored tonight and went to go see the new 'Fast and Furious' movie. Movie itself, good. I actually liked it. What happened after the movie... ohhhhhh boy.

I leave the theater, and I hear "I thought that was you, you damn bird!"

I turn around, and it's an old racing buddy of mine, Alex and his girl. We were pretty tight before, and he was a good driver. I said hi and all that junk. He asked how I've been, and pointed out the obvious weight gain lol. I told him I'm good. His basic response was that he's surprisedI'm not dead yet lol. He asked why I haven't been around on the track and such, and I told him that I put that behind me. Had to grow up. And me totaling cars and winding up with a SantaFe added to it. He just laughed at me, and said me destyoying cars is nothing new. Hell, he remembers how hard I pushed my first car, and all the damage I stacked on it lol. Then he mentioned that he talked to Ghost, and he was bitching about me. Couldn't help but laugh. He told me if I ever wanted to race, just hit him up, but I'd need a car that was mine, considering no one would trust me with their car in a race lol. After that, we parted and I headed home. On the way... couldn't help but be ballsy. I discovered that I can powerslide a SantaFe too lol.

In hindsight... i can't believe how dangerously I lived my life, back when I got my first set of wings. Can't believe how immortal I thought I was... well... I still think that way a bit I guess. Still... don't regret it. I lived, and still do, for the rush. That one moment where everything is perfect. Bit older, bit wiser now. There are other ways to feel that.

Hehe... Workaholic by day... racer at night... martial arrtist on the weekends and in between the rest. Damn... still not dead lol.

Tonight was a nice surprise. Nice to know that you leave an impression. Nice to feel remembered after years. Nice to know that you can truely live on after you're gone.

Yea, I gave in so I could talk to my gryphon more lol

Username: RedtailInfy

I'm a complete fag.

So, my sister asks me to pck her up and take her to the mall. I said fine, since I ignored her all weekend. So, we go and she want to go o Ann Taylor. Not too surprised.

So, I go and look for new boots and meet her there. When I get there, first question is what I think about a spring jacket. And I told her is was cute, and that it would look good on her. And then went on to what it would go with. She proceeded to tell me that she was surprised that all that was coming out of my mouth. I told her she trained me well (She was the one who bought my clothes growing up, so she did basically train me with what I wear and how I present myself). She only replied, "It might be because you've been coming out more these days"

........................

I dropped her off and ran to the gym. I needed testosterone -_-

I gave in. I'm such a tool XD

www.twitter.com/RedTailInfy

Something to amuse me at work :3

Wow... haven't done an update in over a week.... well -cracks fingers-

( Car )

( School )

( Work )

( FWA )

( Social )

( Lifting )

Hmmmm... seems like it. One last thing:( MUSIC XD )

So, I go to my gym like usual. I walk in, and the place is empty. Kinda a 'WTF' feeling, until I saw a sign in the front, about another branch opening up close by. This meant one thing, I HAD THE FREE WEIGHTS ALL TO MYSELF!!! ^^

So I change and crap, and decide I should start benching again. I load up the weights, starting light at first. Just 90 pounds (plus how ever much the bar for a Smith Machine is) It was fairly easy, and I felt ballsy. So I put another 50 pounds on. It was going well, since I was able to do it ( :D ), and I got 2 reps in ( :D ), until my hands started to slip and the bar came close to nailing me in the chest ( D: ). I look at my lifting gloves to see the issue. Apperently, I wore out the grips. WTF?

Anyway, I went on to my next exercise. While doing it, I had a newb ask me about a lifting. Little guy, a twig, trying to start up. Made me feel real good for that to happen. Apperently, I give off the vibe that I lift a lot (which I do X3). After I helped him, I went back to my set, only to have the lights get cut, which is the gym's  way of saying "GTFO!" to which I yelled, "FUCK!"

So, I go the change and clean up a bit. I look at my shirt, and let out another 'FUCK!" My shirt is ripping -_-. I pull off my pants, and same thing, starting to rip -_-. So I need to get new lifting clothes, and gloves.

On the drive home, something even weirder happened. I'm driving, and Its damn windy and cold here. Out of no where, a few pillows hit the car, right on the windshield. I pull over, and just stare for a minute.

I mean, pillows? Really? Fucking pillows? In the middle of the street? Really?

The end of today was odd. Just... really odd. Today wasn't bad either, just the last 2 hours was.... weird....

So... I've had a very long day. I was at woke from early this morning, till 5pm. After that, I had to go to class till around 8:30, and then I had to pick up my taxes. Needless to say, I'm beat.

I log onto FA to check messages and such, just intending to sleep afterward, when I see a note sent to me. For the sake of privacy, I'm gonna keep his name hidden, but it's from defiantly from a lurker account. the name says that much.

Hey there.

I was searching through some stuff on the search engine, and I found your panda story. I was just looking for porn, but it caught my eye. After reading it, I couldn't help but cry a little. My life itself has been going through some of the same things. I'm just about to leave highschool, and my family has been wanting me to work and not go to college. They keep telling me it's a waste of time, that I should be making money to support the house. I've really felt powerless against it all. I had even thought about ending it all at some points. Reading this, I think I found a little bit of motivation for myself.

Thanks alot. Youre a really great writer and I hope you keep writing!

Story he refered to: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1760535

I'm... very moved and touched by this. I really am. I don't consider myself that good. I'm still very wet behind the ears, and I have no where near the amount of talent my writing idols Kyell Gold and White Yote have.

I'm really happy I could have touched someone so deeply with something I wrote. Times like this, I don't regret my style of writing. If someone can take something away from something I write, if someone can feel better about themselves, then it was worth it. It may not be porn, and it may not be the most popular things Ive written, but to me, from this message, its the best thing I have written.

I figured out my funds enough for this week that I had enough money to do something for myself. So... I went and bought Kyell Gold's latest novel. I've been dying to read it. It'll be here on Wed.

^^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Murr?

Murr!

Murrmurrmurrmumurr...

O.O!

Murr?!

....

Muuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrr.... l3

Murr :3




....... I don't know XD

Now, for the record, I hate TI lol. I think he's a bad rapper, and everything he raps about is completely idiotic. I got proven wrong when I heard this song. It basically how hip-hop should be. One of those songs that makes you think about things, and has a deep impact on anyone that has gone though anything similar.

Have you ever felt really driven, for a completely stupid reason? Where I am right now.

Now, I didn't hear about Kyell Gold's new book being released at FC till today. I don't spread myself out as a writer as much as I should, but I am a big fan of Kyell's work, to the point where my usual self-confidence and calmness of character would crumble into nothing if I ever met him face-to-face. Yes... I'll admit it. I befriend a lot of cool furs, but even I'm a fanboy.

Kyell is an amazing author. He has multiple novels released, and his style is wonderful. My own style of writing is based partially from him, since I like molding characters and making them feel as real as I can get them

Kyell is also someone I aspire to be like, as lame as that sounds. The guy has 4 novels out, and the 5th just released! He gets all these amazing artists to illustrate his work, and has a set publisher.

Some people know this, but I put most of my stuff on hold, for the sole reason being that I want to try my hand at it. I have a novel in the works, that I'm hoping to get published. Taoren on FA was gracious enough to do my illustrations, which is perfect, since his style is exactly what 'm aiming for.

Now, here's the thing. After I found out about the novel, I wrote... for a while today. That usually doesn't happen, since I typically get busy and things get in my way. For some reason, everytime I think about how amazing Kyell is, and how amazing I'm NOT, I just want to work harder.

I might have a rival disorder with Kyell, but I highly doubt it. I'm not even in the same league lol